Unraisable

Unraisable... This week I got some very disturbing news. After a 2 year salary freeze... everyone got a raise in their last paycheck... everyone but me that is. Why? Your guess is as good as mine. As we have discussed before, I know that I am disliked by people with power at work. But still, I come to work and I work hard. And I'm pretty sure I have handled the shit that was thrown my way pretty well. I don't complain... I just work. Still I feel like these people in power can't seem to look past whatever the fuck it is they hate about me, to see just how much I do. What makes me even more angry is that they haven't even been in power for the last 2 years... 2 years when I didn't get the opportunity to get a raise, but I'm sure other people would have agreed I definitely deserved one. Years when I was considered good at my job... and people respected me. It makes me feel like shit... once again. It makes me so angry. I don't know what more I can do. I feel like I have already swallowed my pride... sucked it up... done everything that is asked of me... with a good attitude... even when there was awful, unfair shit happening to me. I seriously have no idea how someone could look at me... my work... my work ethic.. and decide that I am unraisable. But that's excatly what they did. How do I work for people who can't see who I really am... and what I do? It's just so hard to face that fact that some people see you only as... unraisable.

Evil

You are an evil person. Only an evil person would use their power to deliberately crush another person's hopes and dreams. Only an evil person would have the audacity to look someone in the eyes and show zero emotion while they were taking away everything they had worked so hard for. Only an evil person would put personal feelings ahead of what they should be focused on. Only an evil person would intentionally try to break another person. You think I am weak... It is you that is weak. If this is your way of leading... that is weak. You are sexist. It is so obvious in the comments you make... and the way you treat people. And you know nothing about me. Yet you have made up your mind about who I am and what I do. And everything you have decided, couldn't be further from the truth. But none of that matters. None of it matters because you happen to have the power in this situation. You may have the power there, but you do not control me. You can try to break me... and you may partially be succeeding... but I am fighting back... I will not let you break me... in the end I will come out on top. And you will still be an evil, evil man. You will get yours. You see, I believe in karma. And you have done such awful things to so many people, you should be very, very afraid of what you have coming to you. That gives me a little satisfaction. But I can't worry about you, because I need to focus on me... and finding the strength somewhere inside me to pick myself up... find my happiness... and forget about you. Because in the end, you are just a giant bump in my road. An evil, rude, asshole of a bump in my road.
I leave you with a quote from a wise man:
"Power over others is weakness disguised as strength."

Can we take a vote???

You are the biggest asshole I know. I have NEVER met anyone quite as arrogant or disrespectful as you. How the hell do you expect people to look up to you, to respect you, when you treat them like shit on a daily basis. You are constantly belittling people. Does it make you feel better about yourself?? Do you feel like a bigger, more powerful person when you put other people down? When you remind us that "we are nothing", do you feel better? Do you know that yelling doesn't mean people will listen to you? Do you know that talking down to people doesn't encourage them to value your opinion? Do you know that prancing around like a peacock, causing huge problems and then offering no solutions doesn't make anyone look at you as a leader? And just because people seem to be nice to you, doesn't mean they like you. They are afraid of you, afraid you may fly off the handle if they don't laugh at your jokes, afraid to say the wrong thing and be publicly humiliated. Speaking of your public humiliation... if you think that motivates people, you couldn't be further from the truth. And if you think having us throw each other under the bus and create in-house fighting, is beneficial, you are so wrong. We are a team... we need to be a strong supportive team. We need to work together and depend on each other. It doesn't mean we don't hold each other accountable, but it goes back to the public humiliation thing. It serves no purpose, other than I suppose entertaining you. You say we should all be allowed to share our opinions, but if we do, you cut us off, talk over us, or simply tell us we are wrong. You constantly contradict yourself. You tell one person one thing... and another something completely different. If you think because people don't challenge you... you are respected... you are wrong. If you think because you have power you are trusted... you are wrong. If you think because people listen when you talk they believe what you say... you are wrong. Don't believe me... just look at your record. Look at how many people have left- by choice- since you came. I wish there were a chance that you would examine your ways and perhaps even think about changing... but I know better. I know you are WAY to arrogant for that. I know you think you are the best and there is nothing that could possibly change.
But can we take a vote??

Poison in the room

Did you know it only takes one drop to poison your food, one seed to poison a garden, one person to poison an entire room??
One person to poison an entire group of people, to take good people and make them do things they would never normally do, act like they would never normally act, treat each other like they would not think about treating each other before.
It's amazing the power one person can have over many. The worst part... the "one" is the cause of all the problems. But because of the "one's" perceived power, everyone else would rather turn on each other, than stand together. People that have been friends, respected each other, been there for each other for years... are now instead backing down, saying nothing, or worse yet, actually throwing someone else under the bus. It's quite possibly one of the most despicible things I have seen... at least since junior high. I don't respect it... I don't believe it in.. I don't want anything to do with it. If only it were that simple...