Cry For Help

Talk about controversy.... I didn't realize that my pain and lonliness and my blogging about it was going to cause such a stir, but it has. So now I feel the need to clarify. "All Alone" was not written about any one friend, in fact it was written about a whole slew of them. And contrary to popular belief, it was not written to hurt people's feelings or make anyone mad. Quite the opposite. It was written because I was losing it... I was at a breaking point... because I needed some support and love... it was written as a cry for help. When I wrote "All Alone" I wasn't thinking about anyone of my friends or their feelings. And I certainly wasn't thinking about how they would react when they read the blog. I was overwhelmed with my own sadness and lonliness and hurt. I just needed to express it and this has been how I have always done that. It was not meant to be the last will and testament of my friendships with people whom I love to death and would do anything for. I guess maybe deep down inside, I hoped they would read it and think "Wow, I didn't even realize I was doing that." Or maybe, "I had no idea Living Lawless needed me so badly right now." And then call. That's it... that's all I wanted.. I just wanted people to care. You can hate my method of going about doing this. You can think that I should have sat all of my friends down one at a time and told them I really needed them to start checking in on me, caring a little bit more. If I f-ed that part up in your opinion, I won't try to argue with you. I will only tell you that I never intentionally tried to hurt my friends... I would never intentionally hurt my friends. "All Alone" was my desperate cry for help. I hope that helps...